I Think I Am Having a Nervous Breakdown…(?)?
Question by Rich: I think I am having a nervous breakdown…(?)?
I am a drug addict in recovery (have been “clean” 10yrs) and take Methadone. Recently, due to severe changes in my life, mostly financial due to being unemployed, I was forced to move out of my house I was renting, and relocate to stay with my ex-wife and daughter. She agreed to take me in temporarily. The Methadone clinic where I go once a week is 60 miles away and I don’t have a car, so I have to deped on her to drive me. Unfortunately we argue all the time and she set rules that I must follow if I am to live in her house.
I feel as if my whole life is collasping and I cry all the time. I have to worry every week whether she will drive me to my clinic, because she always threatens me that she won’t, everytime we argue. I can’t seem to find a job, even though I have 14 apps “out there”. The area where I am staying is very farm-like and country (I am a city-guy) and I can’t seem to get used to it; I have lost weight since I have been staying with her; I’m DEPRESSED all the time; and I also have health issues, Diabetes being one of them. On top of all this, she herself has issues; she takes Xanax and gets anxiety attacks sometimes and blames it on me. Her family supports her on that, and they are against me also, even though they have tried to help in the past. As for my family, my mom & dad have passed away, and even though I have 2 older brothers and a younger sister, they can’t not help me anymore financially. They love me, but have virtually “washed their hands of me”
All in all I don’t know how much longer I can go on like this. I realize that taking Methadone for my addiction is somewhat of a “ball & chain” since anywhere else I move must have a clinic near me or be close to the one I go to now. I do get “take-homes” (a 1-week supply) so that helps a little. Basically I have no money, and she has been supporting me since I have been staying with her.
Being a 51yr.old man, and never have been in this situation before; I have worked all my life and was always the supporter instead of the one needing support; has caused me to think about everything that I worked for in life. I feel like I’m a waste and that nothing matters anymore. I am so proud of myself for being “clean” from drugs for over 10 years, and the thought of withdrawals from methadone scares the hell out of me too. So all these issues combined has put me on the brink. I am also in debt and have bills and even owe on my old bank account. I am very nervous all the time. Suicidal thoughts have entered my mind from time to time. I love my daughter very much also, and I feel that I am not being fair to her. She is only 10 and doesn’t say much, but I know she understands. The thought of her being sad because of my situation depresses me very much.
Am I on the brink of a nervous breakdown? There is a lot more that I haven’t told, but as of now, these are the main issues. Please help me? – Richard
Best answer:
Answer by Shaun
You realize that being on methadone for ten years is just a transference of the addiction right? I mean it’s better, but you should probably try to get off that… I suggest for now, trying to get SSDI or some other form of transitional assistance, and thinking about moving into an Oxford house, there are a bunch everywhere, and it’ll help you get out of living with your ex, while providing help for you to get a new job, and be socially connected. It sounds like you’re having a really hard time with everything that’s going on in your life, and things are really starting to pile up, are you seeing a mental health professional, that’s another good option for you to get help working on getting your ducks in a row.
Answer by Yahoo Qs-Ans
Please go through the book by the famous author Dale Carnegie.
‘How To Stop Worrying And Start Living’
Type exactly as below (without the quotes) in Google and do a free download of your choice of link till you get an exact e-book link.
“How To Stop Worrying And Start Living filetype:pdf”
It says…..
“Please read the first forty-four pages of this book-and if by
that time you don’t feel that you have acquired a new power and a new inspiration to
stop worry and enjoy life-then toss this book into the dust-bin.”
Believe me…it works!!