Methadone Rehabilitation

Question by dslkfsdhf: Please! Important question about amphetamine abuse! Also, Focalin XR 30mg Overdose question?
I have had many issues with pill addiction in the past, stopped for 2 years but started again a couple months ago.
Since coming to university it started with 40mg of vyvanse a couple times a week to study but now it’s like week long binges of vyvanse, focalin, concerta, and some others, including methadone which is new for me, but ever since I snorted that I cannot stop thinking about it, it’s gotten to the point where I ask my dealer for it everyday and don’t even realize
Which is my first concern because when I was 14-16 I used to have problems with pills and alcohol and ruined a lot of things/relationships in my life, now I’m 18, failing all my classes because I haven’t been to class in the last month, spending my days just trying to find anyway possible to get high.
The thing I’m worried about is when I come down or am sober I get so depressed I cry for hours, have mental breakdowns/panic attacks, and seriously want to die.
I would never be one to say I have a problem but it’s really scaring me now, any advice or similar experiances?

Other question:
I took a 30mg of focalin xr 10 hours ago and snorted half of one and just took another 30mg like 2 hours ago maybe.
I am tweaking out harder than I ever have right now, like heart is racing, cold sweats, depressed, my whole body is shaking and I’m freezing cold.
What the does that mean?
I didn’t take enough to overdose right?
It’s only 75mg total of the focalin, I’ve taken probably 120mg of vyvanse before but not this much focalin so I don’t know what’s wrong with me.
Have you taken it?
How many mg til you OD?

Thanks everyone!
I don’t care if you judge me
Also! Important!
I am not prescribed anything!
I know it is illegal to buy/sell prescriptions but thats where I am at right now.

Forgot to add –
I’m 5’1, 100lbs
Haven’t eaten in almost 24 hours before popping/snorting that – except have a subway sub like an hour before doing all that last night.

Serious answers please, I know drugs aren’t cool obviously, I am an adult I did attend multiple years of health class throughout Middle School
Thanks!

Best answer:

Answer by eleusis211
You need help. I mean that in the least judgmental way possible. Get yourself checked into a detox if you feel you need it. The time you spend getting your life in order will be so worth it in the long run.

But there is no middle ground. If you can’t control your use you either need to stop using (everything) or try to keep living the way you are. If you don’t believe that, you can keep squandering years of your life like I did or decades like some of my friends did.

Answer by J Miller
The other poster is right, you need help. This is not going to stop if you don’t have help to stop it. You’re going to keep spiraling out of control worse and worse until you get help from someone else. It’s impossible to stop this on your own. If it wasn’t you would already have done it. Please do it now before it gets much much worse and you wake up 30 years old in jail with your life ruined. It happens all the time. It really sounds to me like you are in the early stages of a serious addiction. This is not a matter of using drugs. It’s addiction in it’s truest form.
Can your parents help you? Do you have insurance? If so please call your insurance company and see what kind of treatment they will pay for. You most likely need a lot more than a detox. Remember that quitting drugs is not that hard. It’s not starting again that is hard and most addicts relapse several times before they get clean. I’ve quit using more times than I can count and have been to several detoxes but I’ve relapsed every single time except for the last time I got into treatment seven years ago. But it took me ten years of using and trying to quit before I go there. You don’t want this going on ten years from now but chances are good that it will.

I highly recommend that you take a break from school and focus on your recovery. College is a lot of pressure and you don’t need that right now. You’re young and have plenty of time to do it later when you are in a better place.

One thing you can do today for support is to go to an NA meeting. They are all over and people there can help you go in the right direction. Check their website for times and locations. 12-step isn’t for everyone. It didn’t work for me but it does work for a lot of people and meeting are a great place for support.

Whatever you do please stop using the methadone. Methadone is a great medication for those who need it and are supervised by knowledgeable doctors but it can be an extremely dangerous drug when abused. When it comes to fatal drug overdoses methadone is one of the most common drugs to cause it. It’s not like other pills. It has a half life of over 24 hours so you will still have it in your system and can die from it long after the effects wear off. It slows down your respiration and it’s not uncommon that people die in their sleep because the body simply forgets to breathe because of the methadone and the natural slowed respiration when you sleep.
The dose of methadone that you can handle varies a lot from one person to another and even within one person from time to time. Your friend may be able to take 30mg while you take ten and die and what was okay for you last time may kill you this time. Mixing it with other drugs makes it even more dangerous especially if mixed with other opiates, alcohol or sedatives like benzos.
If you do take methadone please do not take it several days in a row. Because of the long half life methadone will build up in your system and the levels in your blood can become toxic even though you took the same dose every day.
It’s a very, very tricky drug and using it when you are not being treated by a knowledgeable doctor is playing with fire. It’s just not worth it. So many kids have died from messing with methadone.